An interesting question I found myself asking just a couple days ago, and then deciding to share my answer with you all.

I’ve never been a big reader, let alone a writer. If you were to have asked me a couple years ago to start a blog, I would have laughed and said “are you kidding me? I can’t write, I’m not a writer and wouldn’t even know what to say.” It’s that ol’ saying “never say never” right!

I don’t believe for a second that my words actually come from me. I believe my words are guided by the Holy Spirit and what he wants me to share with you from my experiences and my walk with Him. You know how I know? Because it never fails that when I attempt to write from myself nothing ever seems to reach the keys and it surely never seems to flow nicely. But, when the Holy Spirit writes through me the words sometimes never seem to stop and the thoughts can be like a flood gate just opening.

My journey with God began 10 years ago when my life took a turn in a way I could’ve never imagined for myself. Too much trust in someone else other than me was a HUGE mistake, or was it? My self-worth wasn’t the strongest it’s ever been and someone close to me used that for his advantage. I then found myself in a position of losing my freedom for a few months as well as losing myself – the only self I knew. The aftermath of that brought me to guilt, shame, unworthiness, embarrassment, and judgment towards myself and the hurt that I had caused those closest around me.

But it was this time in my life where I reached out to God to help me in any way that He could. And He did. It’s due to God that I sit here today sharing this part of my story with you. I had and still have a wonderful village that surrounds me and has never cast judgment, only love and support. BUT it’s God that truly redeemed me and has made me new. God deserves every ounce of praise for where I am today and the direction I’m currently going.

I’m not saying there have been times where I’ve gotten off the path, I’ve doubted and allowed fear and distractions to take over because there most certainly have been those times. The thing is, it’s God who is there each and every time to pick me up and kick me in the butt to take another step, baby steps. God will never give us more than we can handle (even though at the time we feel we’ll never get through) and He’ll be right there to handle whatever it is we need at that particular time. Leaning on Him and trusting Him will always allow us to see the light getting brighter and brighter with each passing day.

It’s been this chunk of time in my life that has brought me here today. The Holy Spirit has placed in my heart that I’m to share my experiences and the amazing love, support and blessings God has sent my way during these last 10 years of healing. Yes, I’m 59 as I write this and I can say without a shadow of a doubt that my 50s have been the “healing years.”

I have started and stopped this blog many times. I have questioned why and how am I to do this. I have had thoughts that no one wants to hear what I have to say, what I’ve learned – it’s boring, I have no credibility, I haven’t studied the Bible for 20, 30 years. I’m realizing each day that it’s not about comparing myself to others or how long I’ve been reading the Bible or that I don’t have a degree in Theology, it’s about my story, my testimony and how it may help and encourage you to reach out and surrender your life to God.

At this time in my life, I believe this blog is the vehicle God wants me to use to share my journey with you in the hopes to bring you closer to Him and develop your own unique relationship with Him.

God can and will take anything bad and make good from it. There were and continue to be many blessings that came from that horrible life experience – the biggest being that I found God in a way that I never imagined. It’s God who truly heals and sets us free. God is good today and ALWAYS! This blog and my journey (no matter the twists and turns, the stops and goes) is my way of worshiping and praising the God that has set me FREE and will do the same for You.

Are you ready to surrender, or re-surrender, your life to God? If you are, repeat after me:

“God, please forgive me of my sins. I surrender myself to you. My life is yours. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”

Your journey begins NOW!